Can I prove it? Sadly, not thinking about the implications, I failed to order a documentary crew to follow me around.

Can I tell you about it?

Yesterday was Mom #2’s service. I was asked to be a pall bearer. As I walked into the chapel for the viewing, concentrating on what Mom’s daughter was telling me, I realized that I could make out her words as through a curtain of syrup.

Praise God!

I would like to think that Mom had something to do with that. She was a true prayer warrior and a woman of God.

Thank you, Mom.

Now, almost 24 hours later, I am starting to hear more clearly. I can catch details. I hear birds chirping out the back door. I can hear the dogs snoring in the next room.

Last night, it was to the point where I could hear as through a thick curtain, no syrup.

Last night I could hear my little girl’s voice again.

There is still a background of (BZ! DON’T READ THIS PART!) “white” noise, that “skshshshshs” that’s been going on since it started, but it’s not overwhelming everything else into submission.

I don’t care.

I can hear.

Chat ya later…

I’ve ‘heard’ that the one thing people around me miss while I am going through my lack of hearing is my sense of humor. I miss it too. The problem is, my sense of humor keys off of audio cues – I riff on what other people are saying. Since I can’t hear all the little things that are “riffable” I can’t crack wise. Or smart.

Yes, I can kind of make out what you are saying – if you are looking at me, and I am concentrating on what your lips are saying along with the context clues of your facial features and body language. That concentration is not allowing my mind to wander down the side paths that are where my humor hides; this means there are many gems that won’t see the light of day until I can hear again.

I have been asked if I am going to learn ASL. I am sure that ASL would be a good thing to know. I will probably learn it, yes, but not as my primary means of communication. You see, I believe that God is going to heal me – or He will allow the Doctors to figure out which technology will be best for me. Either way, I know that I am going to hear again. I don’t know when, and I will work on ASL while I am waiting, but ASL is not the answer if my position as a manager of a retail store remains. Not all customers can ‘speak’ ASL, and if one of them is asking me a question form around the corner, and I just walk away …

Today’s testing is complete. The technician mapped my nerves. It was very relaxing; in fact, I’m pretty sure I took a little nap while in the chair. Results will be discussed with the inner ear specialist on the 18th.

I don’t know what the future holds, but I am looking forward to it. I will keep you posted.

Chat ya later…

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I was going to theme my posts for a while with silence – but I figured that would be boring after about two minutes. Boring for you, dear reader, since I am constantly amusing myself in my head. Anything to try to forget that I’m not getting any aural stimulation.

MRI yesterday, specialist again on Tuesday and another on Friday; Tuesday they are going to do a direct injection of steroids into the eardrum. Well, through the eardrum. We’ll see what happens with that. My friend Angie had this done to save her hearing, but it was too late in the process.

My beautiful wife has been acting as my liaison with the medical types. She has had the surgery conversation with them, since it was over the phone. So, they are looking at accelerating everything because bilateral complete loss is fairly rare. (I know – what are the odds? couldn’t hit those odds when the lottery was in the hundreds of millions, but when it came to my hearing …) They are talking about an implant in each ear. Not being a big fan of surgery, I am praying that the steroids will make some kind of improvement in either the hearing ability (allow me to hear through the static) or reduce the static itself (possibly allowing sound to get through). I envy your prayers in both of these paths, I especially envy your prayers if surgery becomes the only option.

Get on out and seize the day – love your family, listen to the birds sing, and protect your senses. Wear red today – to show your support for our troops. Thank a member of the military for their service.

Praise God in all you do.

Chat ya later…

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When it gets right down to it, I’m the one who thought he didn’t need hearing protection all the time. Just when it was going to be louder than normal, right? Certainly not while waiting my turn on the rifle or pistol range. Certainly not while walking through the shop – not if I wasn’t the one operating the tools, right?

When it gets right down to it, it’s my own fault that the tinnitus is SO FREAKIN’ LOUD that I can’t even get to sleep because of it …

Well, I get to serve as a bad example. I could tour factories and military posts and say “Boys and girls, use your hearing protection. If you don’t, you will grow up to be just like me. Deaf, tired, and grumpy because you look back and realize you could have avoided the same fate.”

grump, grump, grump …

It’s quiet today.

Too quiet …

Actually, that’s my life for now. The Ear Nose Throat specialists, when told that I could not hear anything, decided that an audiologist would run a comparative test on me, using my February visit as the baseline.

The audiologist was very snippy when, after being told by TMBWitW that I couldn’t hear anything, I was not responding to the testing. The only thing that happened was 1) I felt a slight vibration while she was testing the bone transmission, and 2) I saw her frantically waving to get my attention so I could try to read her (very fast and compressed) lips through the observation window. Tough to do, but I figured out she was asking if I heard anything. I shook my head “no” and wondered if I could get my co-pay back, since so far I already knew everything they were telling me.

I don’t think she was in a good mood.

The PA, Lori, was concerned about the rapid change. Once she heard how and when, and the physical aspects (I was in extreme pain when it happened, it felt like someone was sticking long toothpicks into my ears) she made a call of “osteosclerosis” – I think. It took a couple tries to read that on her lips, and she finally pointed it out on a page. Wait – that’s not right. Otosclerosis? Hmmm … any way, it’s a problem in the ear bones (those three little dudes behind the ear drum) and she prescribed prednisone (of the steroid family) to see if it helped any. Then she said – get this – if I didn’t hear from them in a couple weeks to make a follow up appointment. I laughed and said “Let’s make it now, then!” At least Lori had a sense of humor, unlike Miss Audiologistwithnofunnybones.

Long story short – I can’t hear. It may be reversible. It may not improve.

I miss listening to music, especially the music of my wife’s and daughter’s voices.

God is control, and He will not leave me nor forsake me. His plan for me is perfect, and I look forward to what He wants to teach me now.

And, for now, it appears that the question of hearing first or sanity first is moot.

Chat ya later…

Thanks for stopping by, In GOD We Trust, and Wear Red on Fridays!

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